My detailed memories of my molestation - Psych forums I met Gary atthe place we both worked At the time, I thought he really isn't the type of guy I am interested in, but I decided to go out with him anyway He was funny and I had a good time with him The first time I had sex with him, I was amazed Literally My sex life with Jim I thought was always good, till I experienced Gary
I wrote my Story*** Graphic*** - Psych forums Re: I wrote my Story*** Graphic*** by SoulAffect » Thu Sep 08, 2011 4:49 am JuliaC wrote: I know you said in your other thread that you don't want people to be sympathetic toward you and that you would rather us treat you with hatred and disgust, but again I am sorry because I can't do that
Sexual Abuse and Incest Forum - Psych forums For me, I was Hypo-Sexual, unaware of my deep pervasive shame while avoiding Sex and, ultimately, any kind of relationship until I was so isolated I was compelled to engage What ensued was increasingly abusive relationships that culminated in was essentially a repeat of the molestation I endured for a brief period being when I was 3
My Experience *TW, slightly graphic* - Psych forums It certainly wasn't any conscious hatred for the whole of the sex- on the contrary I would have preferred to have been born cis-female But, teen girls can be mean as hell I wonder if that's why he was with an older woman More 'mother' and less 'peer' Maybe he had a special hatred for teenaged girls
I disgust myself ***Graphic*** - Psych forums First I think it's f*cked up that I stopped being a virgin at age 5 I was told to do several acts with my dad One of them I did a few times only I had anal sex with him, but I was the one who was penetrating him and I was maybe 10-12? Don't know exact age It wasn't something that I wanted to do He told me and I did it
I liked it. *triggering* : Sexual Abuse and Incest Forum - Psych forums I don't have sex life or relationships at all I'm 20 years old now, and the only men that have touched me is my childhood abuser and a much older man that I got drunk with and let him cop a good feel of my boobs I've been going to therapy for 5 years now and have learned a lot about myself, but I still feel guilty and gross
TW *graphic* : Sexual Abuse and Incest Forum - Psych forums Though it continued to get worse, especially in Year 12, when you’re suddenly in this new ‘adult’ world I hated my body But in particular, my reproductive system So I used to cut the skin above on my tummy as a way of punishing it Still do For being so uncooperative, for being so scared, for fearing sex, for not protecting me
Recounting the first time (trigger warning) - Psych forums That somewhat reassured me, but I was still sitting naked from the waist-down right in front of my dad who was holding my legs open without any idea why! Suffice it to say, I was still feeling nervous He calmly ushered me again “Go on, relax ” I eased up as best as I could He then moved his head down on my vagina and started performing
Turned on by molestation and rape stories. Im a girl. *trig - Psych forums If you have moral issues with looking up survivor stories then maybe it is best to stop, but that might not be easy If you do want to stop, maybe a good place to start would be to look up fictional stories instead of real life ones Reading it from the person is happened to is arousing, but reading a description of it can be equally arousing